The hardest part of my pregnancy (other than the agonizing back pain) is probably the uncertainty. I don’t know how many days we have to go… so…??
I want to have a set deadline – something simple that I can work towards. But I suppose one of the first lessons in parenthood will be this: things happen on the baby’s schedule. She’ll be ready when she’s ready. She’ll let me know her wants and needs. I’ll have very little control over the whole process.
It’s probably good that babies take over nine months to grow inside us. I feel like I have learned a lot in the past three quarters of a year – about children, parenthood, and myself. I have learned to put my family first in a lot of ways; I’ve gained confidence in my ability to surround myself in love and happiness. It all leads up to this month.
Let the countdown begin.