Running Out of Reasons Not to Run

(note: this post is a reflection of my internal monologue. enjoy)

Even if I wanted to take a run, there's some sort of death hazard on the treadmill

Today my neck hurts.

Yesterday I forgot until just after I’d had my morning shower.

And the day before? Well I had to work early and barely had time to get my normal tasks done.

What am I trying to avoid? Running.

Am I trying to learn to run? Nope – I ran 3 half marathons and a full marathon before turning 22. I adore running and the way it makes you feel almost invincible… but getting myself dressed up and fed to go out running is just… so much work.

When I was in school I had no problem getting a good run in. I would go to school early, get in a good 5-7 km on the treadmill, shower, and be in class by 10.  But now that I’m home and working in retail… well I just can’t be bothered. And there really is no reason for it, I can almost see the family treadmill from where I’m sitting right now. And to sweeten the deal even more, there is a tv that I can watch right in front of the treadmill. But then, I would have to somehow work waking up early, and eating, and then showering, and getting dressed, in all before I work.

Today I start work at 3.

But I already mentioned that my neck hurts. I’m pretty sure I slept in some sort of heap. Or on rocks. Or maybe I strained my neck working retail? Maybe there is some innate danger to working at all?

My god it’s easy to talk myself out of doing something that requires any sort of exertion at all, even if I enjoy it and it would be a benefit to my overall fitness. But maybe you’ve heard this kind of pointless, self-argument before?

I feel like I let myself off with a lot because I am so dissatisfied with my lack of employment.  When I first became unemployed, I told myself that I was going to do SO MANY THINGS that I always wanted to do. Like get in super good shape, continue writing comics, and finish writing the draft of my first novel. But after a few weeks of job hunting, I just didn’t feel like doing anything. I basically took refuge in my basement and watched television. It was only recently, when I couldn’t even be bothered to play video games, that I figured there might be something wrong with me.

Some form of mild depression? Who knows. What I do know for sure is that over the past week I’ve been blogging every day. And already I feel like I’m getting my joy back. I feel like myself again, and I have such a better perspective on my own situation. I don’t want to push myself too hard, but I’ve started taking up all of my hobbies again – like blogging, drawing, crochet, origami, blogging, and countless other small projects. It’s awesome.

Maybe I’ll start running again tomorrow. :)

Elle

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12 thoughts on “Running Out of Reasons Not to Run

  1. I love to run even when there are a million reasons why I don’t want to or don’t feel good. But it’s like my quiet zone to drown out the world and blast my tunes with wind blowing through my hair. Yes I do have to plan time for it and I sometimes am too busy. But then that day when I wake up and just go for a run, the day goes so smoothly and no one can get me down. Plus my dog loves to go, too. I guess you just need something to motivate you! I try to put on workout clothes even when I don’t want to run because when I change my mind, I don’t have to change my clothes! Good post.

  2. I was in a bike accident two days ago, got scratched and bruised, but otherwise fine. Technically, I can run, but I’ve convinced myself that I can’t “because i hurt all over”. The sucky thing is, I love running once I’m out the door, but getting out of the door is a pain in the arse. I totally understand.

  3. I have a thing, with always making stupid excuses not to exercise too… But I just do it constantly..

    I never ran a marathon, and I probably never will.. XD But the idea sounds cool tho..
    Running isent for me, but the gym might be? Or bycicling? I just never get it done…. Sigh!

  4. Oh, my goodness, I thought I was the only one who hated getting geared up to go for a run! Hah! Awesome!! Hilarious to see everyone else is in the same shoes, as it were….
    I, too, get the life-giving relief that blogging is doing for you! It’s like there’s a purpose to your day. That’s how I feel. A little nudge, a little niggle in your brain to keep your mind engaged, when you’d otherwise be, well, a tad numb. Awesome writing!! :-)

  5. Ha!! wow…do I feel you on this !! I’ve been struggling with this ever since the damn time change! I HATE the dreadmill and will do anything to not have to use it. But all I’ve been doing as of lately is making excuses on how and why to do NOTHING! I wanted/want this winter to be the season that I kicked myself in high gear and came out renewed, energized and in better shape come Spring. So far…it’s super slow going. Here’s to you and I both taking charge of ourselves and getting away from all of the crappy reasons why we can’t get our runs in. I’m going to put on another layer today to stay warm when I hit the trail….you my friend go grab that bottle of Aleve and work out your neck kink and get those legs moving!! ;)

  6. This is exactly how I’ve always been: the more I have to do, the more I can get done; the less I have to do, the less I want to do. Sounds like you’ve already started to do little things every day to get your life and spirit rolling again… keep it up! And good luck!

  7. I also hate getting geared up for a run. I stopped running for a year. I just ran for the first time yesterday and I loved it. However, I just threw on basic exercise clothes and high tailed it to the gym. Thinking about doing anything that requires effort gets my eyes rolling. But once I start, I love it.

    Keep up the good work! :)

  8. Pingback: Spontaneous Motivation: I’m Training for a Half-Marathon « Transitionelle

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